Blessed With A Curse

I've been through hell and back, and i've hid it well.
Enjoy the part of me no one sees.

You are such a piece of shit.

You start an argument with me. Tell me I need to get the fuck out in 3 weeks. I tell you that ill be gone in 2 days, if thats what you really want, then you start crying? Telling me not to leave you? You shouldn’t have said that if you didnt mean it. You should have thought things through. I didnt think youd be that big of an asshole, to tell me to get the fuck out at 7am, knowing I hadn’t slept at all, and that I have to work at noon. But you are. So here I am, sitting in mcdonalds crying. Waiting to go to work. You can burn in hell for all I care. You fucking asshole.

fragile-disguise:

youcreatedthismonster:

People say that suicide is selfish.
But maybe it’s not.
Maybe the selfish one’s are the one’s trying to keep that person alive, even when they’re so clearly miserable.
If someone doesn’t want to be here, who are you to deny them the right to leave?
It’s not fair. 
It’s selfish.
If someone wants to die, why can’t we just allow them to.
Allow me to.
Because there’s no point in me being here.
So please, stop telling me that it’ll get better. Stop telling me to stay here…stop telling me there’s a reason for me to be here. Because there’s not. Not for me. And quite frankly, I’m getting pretty fucking tired of pretending that I don’t want to die. Pretending that I’m more okay than I am.
I’m not okay, and I don’t want to be here at all. I’m sick and tired of all the bullshit. I’m so fucking tired. 
I don’t want to be here anymore…

^ SO. FUCKING. RELEVANT.Did you seriously just take all the words out of my mouth and type them out? Wow.

fragile-disguise:

youcreatedthismonster:

People say that suicide is selfish.

But maybe it’s not.

Maybe the selfish one’s are the one’s trying to keep that person alive, even when they’re so clearly miserable.

If someone doesn’t want to be here, who are you to deny them the right to leave?

It’s not fair. 

It’s selfish.

If someone wants to die, why can’t we just allow them to.

Allow me to.

Because there’s no point in me being here.

So please, stop telling me that it’ll get better. Stop telling me to stay here…stop telling me there’s a reason for me to be here. Because there’s not. Not for me. And quite frankly, I’m getting pretty fucking tired of pretending that I don’t want to die. Pretending that I’m more okay than I am.

I’m not okay, and I don’t want to be here at all. I’m sick and tired of all the bullshit. I’m so fucking tired. 

I don’t want to be here anymore…

^ SO. FUCKING. RELEVANT.
Did you seriously just take all the words out of my mouth and type them out? Wow.

(via hellohennah)